Just in case you have some free time Santa....

This year for one reason or another it has been a terrible year.  I cannot wait until it is over and that hopefully the dawning of 2012 will bring better days.

So this year I thought I would write my own 'Dear Santa...' letter and rather like the one my children compile using the shop catalogues I have decided to put together my own Christmas list, you know just in case you have some free time Santa.

* Santa 3 weeks ago my ceramic hob on my cooker decided to crack, I had insurance on it so I thought I would use my convection microwave instead while I waited for it to be fixed.  I was quoted 10 days for a replacement hob so the microwaving began and just 1/2 day into it the damn thing decided, after 12 years of faultless service, to fall apart and stop working - Sooooo Santa I would love a new convection oven/microwave to replace my departed one or even just a standard microwave if you are busy...

* With my recent weight loss I would love to have more than a couple of items of clothing that fit, not designer brands just a couple of pairs of jeans, a jumper or two and definitely a new coat as mine went through my pregnancy with me and is now out of shape and looking very sorry for itself.  So Mr Claus a nice new coat would be perfect!

* A new car, well not new new but newer than my L registration one that has now done 244000+ miles.  Ok so she is still going but every day the screeching fan belt and squeaking steering wheel grate that little bit more on my already tense psyche and so something I could actually rely on to not break down and get me further than the end of my County would be a real godsend - Mercedes not required just reliable and not a petrol guzzler unlike my current version - thank you!

* A bit more luck and a lot more laughter would go down well this Christmas - my friends must be bored of my woes by now, I know I am!

And finally as this list is a list just for me and my selfish whims perhaps a spa day or even a hair cut and colour would be a dream come true, so Santa I know you are busy but I have been a good girl all year,

Yours,

Louise aged 38 and 1/2 years
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Try not to judge me to harshly but it had to be done....

Yesterday I did something totally selfish, something completely unlike me and alien.  It felt wrong, forbidden and somehow very sinful. It went against how I am and how I have been since having children.

So what could be so bad?  Well try not to judge me but I spent money on MYSELF!!  I know, I know how could I ! I bought myself a new bra as after having lost nearly 3 and a half stone mine are now all too big and it is a big like trying to hold up my poor breasts in a hammock!!

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Not only that but I bought it after spending 30 minutes, yes 30 MINUTES having a proper bra fitting which meant me conversing with another adult about a subject that did not involve babies, children, nappies or weaning.  Ok Tala was asleep in his pram in the store with me but I was there for ME!

Now don't get me wrong I didn't gorge on my 30 minutes of 'freedom to be me' and go and buy two whole items of essential lingerie.  I just took it easy and weaned myself into the whole selfish me moment with the one bra, but it felt good and to be honest after the event my boobs look great to.

Although I cannot see me starting a career in the 'Me time' arena it did feel satisfying and liberating in some small way to know I can do it if I want to. Who knows I may even one day make it to get my hair cut (it has been 5 months and I can't really see properly through what was my fringe) or even more extravagant my nails done !
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